On Life,Death,Longingness,Loneliness and Punishment of Goblin;The Lonely and Great God.


What more can you expect from a drama written by Kim Eun Sook who previously wrote scripts for Descendants of The Sun.Goblin is a big-budgeted drama starred by Gong Yoo,Kim Go Eun,Kim Dongwook and Yoon In-Na.When I said big budget..the budget is really big.From the cinematography,to the OSTs,props,clothes and CGI ; the producers are indeed invested a lot in this drama and the result is not disappointing.Goblin topped the chart in Korea and is extremely popular among K-drama enthusiasts.

Wow.I sound like Allkpop now.

Basically we have two couples in here,Kim Shin (Goblin) and Eun Tak,Wangyeo (Grim Reaper) and Sunny (Sunny not Sun-hee).Goblin and Eun Tak’s love is the sad love as Eun Tak had wished in the earlier episode and Grim Reaper and Sunny’s love is the sad one as well.Thank god we have Goblin and Grim reaper’s bromance to lift up the mood in this drama!


first meeting of Euntak and Kim Shin

The most beautiful thing about the drama is the way it portrays the sacred life and death flawlessly.The most precious gift that we are blessed is our ardent desire to live.

Death and Life.

As someone who has epiphany for death & life related piece,this piece of arts touches my heart.Goblin has already died but then came back to life and lived in agony for 900 years until he met his bride,Eun Tak.Later,he lived in between death and life for 9 lonely years in the tundra (this I would elaborate later in longiness).

In the last episode it was revealed that grim reaper is someone who has committed biggest sin of which is taking one’s own life ; committing suicide.Their punishment is to be neither living nor dead,and to usher countless people in deaths.Although they have no memories and names but they still need food and home to live in.

Grim reaper stated he was searching for answers, when one day it occurred to him:

“That the things we’d given up—our names, the lives we threw away—were the very things I began to want. That when we long for life desperately, our punishment may be over.”

South Korea is ranked among the highest number of suicides in the world.And there this drama talking about wanting back the lives once they threw away is when their punishments are over.I hope the viewers who are depressed and suicidal will cease to appreciate life after they watch this drama.


“My sister,my friend,and my bride have all left.And as always,I am alone.”


Longingness,loneliness and punishment.

The days where Goblin longs for Euntak…

The days where Grim reaper longs for Sunny…

The days where Euntak longs for Goblin …the sudden pain she felt in her heart where she didn’t know why she felt that way,what memories she had lost,who and what.

The days where Sunny longs for grim reaper…we all thought she had forgotten all her memories when grim reaper kissed her and wished her happy ending.


In all honesty,I sobbed when Sunny drafted her letter and sent it to radio station.That was when everyone realised that Sunny had indeed still have her memory intact.God wanted to grant her oblivion but she was too proud,saying  that in her place even God had to pour himself his water.Aigoo gurl.


” We won’t see each other again in this lifetime”

She loved him with all her heart,but she couldn’t bring herself to forgive him in this lifetime.Hence she left him because it was the greatest punishment she could give to him.It is the punishment of loneliness and longingness.Sunny’s parting from Grim reaper made him a sobbing mess.He bawled his eyes out in the room,and even Goblin’s cute veggies didn’t make him any better.

In this world,love and pain are strongly connected.You cannot love without feeling the pain.Sometimes instead of being with the person you treasure the most,you have to choose the painful path ; walking away.


Finally they met again the next lifetime where the waiting is short and the meeting is long

The punishment for Goblin is that he had to live forever.At first he had to live and wait for his bride to be born to pull out the sword from his chest but later,in his longiness for Eun Tak he begged the almighty to let him live forever so that he can meet with Euntak and live happily with her with her remaining 3 lives.

People,the hardest punishment,I believe is the one given to Goblin.For 900 years he had to live in loneliness and watched his servants/acquaintances died.After 900 years he met his bride and it is either him or his bride die,he chose to die but he also refused to die.He got stuck in the tundra for 9 years,longing for Euntak.Because everything is white and Goblin had walked for miles,sometimes he walked backwards just to see his own footprints.

Imagine,being the one who lives and watching people you love come and go.


meeting again in Euntak’s second life

This is the drama you want to watch if you want to sob,laugh,smile and ponder on the beauty of love and life particularly.Everything is very detailed carefully planned.I cannot spot any flaws.

And,Goblin and Grim reaper in this drama are extremely good-looking ; you won’t get that in other place!


Till then,



#2 Letting Go

Disclaimer : This scrabble is very personal.I just think that it will be nice to share.You can call this – reminiscing old memories as a fangirl.

She’s a girl with old-scars,she’s a girl who is growing,she’s a girl who’s learning and above all she’s a girl.As simple as that.

Andi learnt that growing up means that you need to sacrifice a lots of things and growing up to means that you need to let go of precious memories.In her case,she does not have much memories except for her share of musics.

Andi was 8 when she first knew kpop.It was 2005 and there weren’t many kpoppers as it is in 2015,give and take,it’s been 10 years.She knew a lot.She can recite all of the histories and facts straight from her heart.She is like a walking kpop dictionary and encyclopedias,plus she has a very good memory.

Andi places her head onto the pillow,she shuts her eyes and bites her lips.

“This is how it suppose to be.People grow up,people change and some things is never the same..I change too,for good.”

Andi still can remember the hours she spent in front of the PCs,reading allkpop,soompi as they are the Al-Quran.She was so obsessed that every inch of her room was filled with her favorite group posters – which apparently all the groups she listened to,minus the girl groups.She hated the girl groups – acting all giddy,cute and haha..it is just pure jealousy that they look very good.

In the old times,Andi spent most of her time scurrying in her rooms.Apart from kpop,she also listened to mainland Chinese,Taiwanese,Japanese and HK singers.Ohh she is still in love with Mandarin – she thinks that Mandarin is heck sexier than French-English-slang.

Andi can recall too how hard she cried when Dong Bang Shin Ki splitted and Double S disbanded.She bawled her eyes out and did not eat for 2 days. (heckk Andy really loves foods.foods is life).Now she is sure that the girls cried too when Luhan and Kris went solo.Just like her..and the old memories of her and DBSK and SS501 floods to her mind.

The bitchy Park Jung Min and beautiful Kim Jaejoong were definitely her favorites.She read everything about them,memorized every single song they sang and watched every single video they were in.She remembered squealing when Kim Jaejoong appeared almost shirtless in Mirotic – oh so sexy (later Jaejoong had forgotten to wear shirts in their concerts and so does other idols – they go shirtless with their chocolate abs and fangirls go gaga over it -___-)  and Park Jung Min was so hot in Unlock,Deja Vu and Love Ya.Another word today,the girls would say their ovaries exploded when idols make comeback or rookies debute.As for me I would like to declare that my ovaries are still there in its place and haven’t exploded even I’ve experienced a lots of excitements.

Kpop also taught her friendship and brotherhood.The beautiful videos of Super Juniors – 12 of those dorks and SHINee.They seemed so real.She laughed and felt like those dorks were there laughing with her too.

Every variety shows,banjun dramas Andi had watched without fail.Even the ones without english subtitles.She prided herself for understanding Korean,Mandarin and of course Japanese.But now,after she quitted kpop and other forms of entertainment she realised that her abilities had worn out.You rest you rust.

She realised one of the reasons why she did not have any close friends is because she does not know how to keep in touch with them.You know like she can talk to everyone and crack jokes every now and then but when she get home she will shut down the whole world and focused on certain things.She only got one best friend in her entire life,well first they started as trio but ended up as duo.She did not blame Nana though because she also did not do much to persevere the friendship.She just like living alone and doing things on her own.At times, she likes company.But too much company is annoying.

There are a lot of fun things in kpop,really.There are the MVs,the reality shows,the idols own shows,concerts,fanfics,artfics and lyric parodies.They are there to make you not feeling bored and Andi enjoyed all of them until she began to realise to one point – this is not what she wants.

Excessive entertainment is not good for the heart – for the heart is actually quenched for something else.This is what Andi discovered two years ago and she is only managed to stop a year ago.It is really hard because she literally grow up with kpop but with time she heals.

Sometimes,just to check what is going on – Andi logged into her youtube accounts and watch few kpop MVs and glad that she quitted already.The entertainment is getting dirtier – no more innocent songs,innocent dances and innocent idols.They are all tainted,sexy,sensual and capitalised for more money.

There is no such thing as real thing.

The truth hurts,the reality bites.

Andi just glad,really,she’s glad.

She have found good companions – although there is no guarantee that this one will last,and she have also found new hobby out of kpop.Although she knows that she remembers,it is not a bother.

We all grow and we all change.Andi might grow out of kpop,you might grow out of heavy metals and others might have left their false beliefs,ideologies,hobies of lifestyle.All to be a better person,a better muslim from yesterday.

(^^V ) (>…<) (Y.Y)
can you relate?ahaks.