LIFE SO FAR

Assalamualaikum,

I didn’t intent to abandon my safe haven and I hate giving excuse but really I am just not ready to pen down my thoughts online.In the last post, approximately almost 1 month ago , I told you guys I will go to China for a week , and I mentioned about JPA PIDN . Alhamdulillah I went to China for a week and c’est superrrrr!!! Also, alhamdulillah I secured JPA PIDN .

 

 

Life so far.. I would say better than I have imagined. The fact that I had recovered from my situational depression is a blessing itself and having my dreams fulfilled is another blessing God gives me. Alhamdulillah.

This semester we have a French lecturer , he is not a French but he is from Senegal and he speaks nothing but only French in his class. Can you imagine? I take this as a challenge to work harder on my French.

College activities is bearable , it will usually reach the peak where there are tonnes of activities in the second semester of the year . Which means , YOU DIE DIE DIE . I hope I will be able to make it , I will handle a program under my secretariat , I will handle all the paperworks for mobility in France (financial and stuff) and.. I don’t know what else will come. College dinner and award day also means lots of works and rehearsal until dawn. Crazy.

Friendship , hmm. I still haven’t talked to my roommate that a lot. We don’t say hi , which I found weird because we sleep next to each other (almost , meaning the bed arrangement is close) . I also don’t talk to the friend whom I had disagreement with . It wasn’t really a disagreement but safe to say the friendship was ruined. Yesterday I thought about this and wonder to myself how the hell this happen. All three of us pray and read Al-Quran regularly , we are practising muslims yet we don’t preserve the relationship between us. Mindboggling. I hope we talk again , someday 🙂 I have tried to make these problems worked out but.. yeah.

Family-wise , my mom got admitted to the hospital today. I spent the whole evening bawling , Told my bestie about this, tweeted and Ig-storied as well . Pray that my mom will be okay. My brothers are doing well , my sister will graduate in a year , my dad is doing fantastic . Alhamdulillah.

I hope everything goes well , and , hmm… I went to BTS Exhibition, #RECONTRERINMALAYSIA  last week. It was my first time and I had fun . Hope to be able to attend their concert on front row!

 

Hoping for more happy days , thank you Allah

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A Kpop Trash

Today’s evening , my brother said to me that I am hantu kpop and then ran away while screaming ; Kakakku hantu kpop!!! . Wow, that would make a nice pop Malay novel .

I think kpop is extremely big nowadays , pretty much everyone has listened to kpop songs in the course of their lifetimes ; voluntarily or involuntarily. Even my cousins who hate kpop (because the boys are prettier than them XD ) recognised the songs I played when I tried to introduce my biases to em .

If you follow my social medias , you must be alarmed that I am now an ARMY hahahaha. Ew. I used to despise and look down at ARMYs because they are very loud and annoying . I knew BTS eversince their debuts , but of course I wasn’t a fan because ahm.. I stanned EXO and BTS beat EXO at awards . I was… quite foolish , as you could see. I should have stan this awesome group sooner!

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well I tweeted this to them as soon as I read in an article that BTS actually read fans’ comments and tweets

Admittedly BTS used to annoy  me so much because they are everywhere and they keep producing albums , songs ,even do videos for fans. Question ; aren’t they tired?

However , later I realised. BTS doesn’t come from big company , they aren’t from the 3 big giants. They are from a small company , but they have a big dream. With that dream , (okay , maybe dreams ) they put their heads down and work extremely hard.  If this didn’t work out , they might as well have to forget their dreams . There is no plan B . They just need to push themselves and produce good contents for fans. They succeeded , I have to add. They made it to Billboard. They even won Top Social Artist Award at Billboard Music Award 2017 , that’s hugeeee . The first kpop group to win the award. Coming from very humble background , how could I not see them as an inspiration.

THEY ARE FREAKING SMART UTILISING THE SOCIAL MEDIAS CONSTANTLY FEEDING UPDATES TO THE HUNGRY AND FAMISHED FANS AND PRODUCE CATCHY MVS HOT DANCE EVEN SYNCHRONISED DANCE STEPS AND HOW COULD YOU GUYS PRODUCE SUCH BEAUTIFUL LYRICS , NOT MANY KPOP ARTISTS MAKE THEIR OWN MUSICS AND IT IS ALWAYS FELT LIKE BTS AND ARMY ARE CLOSE.VERY PERSONAL. THIS FANDOM FEELS SO REAL AND PERSONAL . I COULD RELATE TO BTS .

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after 4 years , you managed to convert an anti into a fan :’)

Before this I only want to go Jaejoong’s concert , now I want to go to BTS as well. And it is a very bad news to my pocket that I am obsessed over a new group , posters and albums are expensive….

Please , grant me a scholarship.